Feb 6, 2008
Nothing Endures but Change
Change is after all the cornerstone of life, of existance, of being. From the time something changed in the primodeal state of the pre-universe leading to the Big Bang, there have been changes, many of them violent and destructive which have finally brought us here.
I don't speak of change simply interms of natural ones either, but there are the ones that we as society bring about that are ineveitable. They may be gradual, indeed I believe that it is the ones that are gradual that last. Wars do little to change the human condition. Look at Iraq now for instance, Instead of living under a native dictator, they have practically been colonised by a greater power. But the situation of the common people remains the same. That change will only come with time, as the people themselves fight for their rights and for true democracy.
Change is inevitable, as life isn't fair to everyone all at once; those who are the underdogs today, will fight to be on top tomorrow. There is no point in bewailing these changes.The only difference that you can make is by changing your attitude to adapt to the change. Change after all, is better than stagnation; a stagnant society will quickly find itself overwhelmed.
Not all change may be good, though you may assume that someone is getting some good out of it somewhere. But that is no reason to to fear chage. Indeed, I fear the opposite, unchangingness- for the simple reason, that that which is unchanging, must be so for all eternity, and eternity is not something I can even begin to fathom.
It has been said, that "the more things change the more they stay the same". That kind of reminds me of a fractal: those geometrical shapes which look the same in their most basic structure as they do magnified.
This may be true, but in that case the perception of change is important. For a poor man who becomes rich, there may be a rich man who became poor, thus balancing things out overall...or as we improve our standards of living, the poverty line may simply be raised, leaving the same number of people beneath it and so on....but the fact is change has taken place, and there is no stoppin it!
Feb 3, 2008
Lil things friends do!!!

The last 3 days has been a blur, with me falling and falling sick. I guess falling was not enough, i had the flu bugg chase me home with vengeance and was a victim of that big guy.
Evening happenned, a few of my friends decided to show up at my door to cheer me up. How sweet was that?? 2 of em showed up with a poker set and 4 joined after. I couldnt talk or move around much. I lost my voice completely; but i guess having friends around made my day. I badly needed people around and right when i thought so, they all showed up :)
Just how eventful it was!!!!! eventhough i felt ripped apart from my sickness.
Love you guys :)
Jan 31, 2008
Back to my ramblings :)
Something cute for my friends daughter. The 1st thing that came to mind as soon as i saw a pic of the new born Stavyah!
I met you today
Not a word, you spoke!
A simple little look
My whole self was yours!
Cya'll with more of my rants:)
Apr 3, 2007
Song of the day!!

Sahana:
Chinmayi & Udit Narayan
Sahana Saral Thoovutho
Sahara pookal Poothatho oooo
Sahana saral thoovutho
Sahara pookal poothatho
Sahara pookal poothatho oooo
Sahana saral thoovutho ooo
En vinveli thalaikimal thiranthatho ada da
Antha vennila veetukul Nuzhainthatho
Athu ennudun thenir kondatho
Kanavo Nijamo,kadhal Manthiramo
Ooru aayiram aandukal semitha kaathal Ithu
Noor aayiram aandukal thaaandiyum vaazhum Ithu
Sahara pookal poothatho
Sahana saral thoovutho
(AR Rehman bit)
Dheem thana Dheem thana Dina na Dina na na na
Dheem thana Dheem thana Dina na dina na na na
Dheem thana Dheem thana Dina na dina na na na
Dheem thana Dheem thana Dina na dina na na na
Thalai muthal kaal varai thavikindra dhoorathai ithazhgalil kadanthu
vidu
Un meesayin mudi endra melliya saaviyil kulangalai thiranthu vidu
Boomikum vaanukum virikindra thoorathai pookalil Nirapatuma
Pookalin saalaiyil poov unnai yenthiya vaanukul nadakatuma
Oor aayiram aandukal semitha kaathal Ithu
Noor aayiram aandukal thaaandiyum vaazhum Ithu
Oor aayiram aandukal semitha kaathal Ithu
Noor aayiram aandukal thaaandiyum vaazhum Ithu Ithu Ithuuuuuuuuu
Sahana saral thoovutho
Sahra pookal poothatho
En vinveli thalaikimal thiranthatho ada da
Antha vennila veetukul Nuzhainthatho
Athu ennudan thenir kondatho
Kanavo Nijamo,kadhal Manthiramo
Oor aayiram aandukal semitha kaathal Ithu
Noor aayiram aandukal thaaandiyum vaazhum Ithu
Sahara saral thoovutho
ooooo oooo ooo ooooooooooooo
Sahara pookal poothatho
o ooo o ooo oooooooooo
Mar 29, 2007
Life is too busy and not fair................
The past one week has been sooper frustrating.. for starters, My net connection conks. had a deadline to meet. My writer conked. So couldnt send the documents I worked on after copying.. The cds I used must have emerged from a garbage dump and landed right into some manufacturing unit. I try and copy files, it goes to another comp and refuses to open my files. So there I went translating all the documents all over again..
Too much driving also. From one end to the other. Haven't been able to do soo much of work.
In between some good things happened too.. I finally got to catch two movies at the Theatre. One bad thing overwrote all good things that happenned to me. I am still coping from it. I am still shattered but i guess i will be strong in dealing with it.
Its really hard to see som1 u know suffering. I sometimes feel how strange and unfair life is... but hey life is never fair...
Let me stop my rant fro now so i can talk abt the men in blue..wat CAN i say about Indian cricket... bunch of losers...i knew this was goin to happen coz they had too much hype...i am dissapointed but they reallly dont deserve to be in the super 8's.
GO PROTEAS...all the way....
I will try to be more frequent with my blogs...
Mar 9, 2007
I wonder!!
Mar 7, 2007
Nostalgiaaaaaa!

I was drivin to work this morning and i saw all these high school kids rollerblading and biking to school. Reminded me of my high school days where i would rollerblade to glory with my cd walkman(yea those were the days when we had those big walk mans)ignoring every1 in the streets. Nostalgia kicked in... It is usually the perfect image of something long lost. You often dream of how you should never have lost it, of how you could return to that instant, time, person or event and how it would make everything all right again, but on real terms, thank God if you never do. In time, the negativity of the experience levels off and creates an unreal image in your mind, which however is rather satisying to the justification of what once has been and now is lost. Yet, a single glance to the reality of 'what is missing' will most probably shatter all the perfection that your nostalgia has built up in your mind. The feeling is only perfect if left unhindered, as a thing of the past that has shaped you up into what you are and is now no more. The moment the nostalgic -reality- creeps back, it is no longer a good feeling of something good you had. Its magic wears out. It becomes a -possesion-, something you have no need to dream of and can't imagine as perfect, for in reality nothing is.
Mar 5, 2007
Fate & Destiny....

I had an argument with a friend about this last week.. I personally dont believe in them.
This is wat i believe destiny is: its not a matter of chance... its a matter of choice; You control what you do today; its not a thing to be waited for and its a thing to be achieved.
Its like what ever happened is for your own good... it might not feel that way going through it...but later on u will realise it is.
Fate is how things you cant control but assemble themselves. Still there are somethings where you do have some control over. Making an incorrect decision in your life when u were given an option and you end up choosing the wrong option. You cant blame that on fate. You were given an option and you decided to go that way.
I got this quote from a friend. "Life is lived forwards, but understood backwards" by philospher Soren Kierkegaard, 1813-1855. It is soo true!!!

But there are times where you have no control over things..Heading to work and you get into an accident. Is that fate?
Some say fate or destiny is a predetermined course of events...sometimes.. if its predetermined can we change it in teh course of our lives?
I dont believe in life being predetermined et al! Read this on my way tow rok today. "There is no chance, no fate, no destiny that can circumvent, or hinder, or control a firm resolve of a determined soul."
Mar 1, 2007
TGIF...
Feb 26, 2007
Losing balance on the beam of life

Today, I have this feeling that I am soo empty inside. Its like an empty space in my soul, like a burning hole in my essence that nothing seems to be able to replace. :( I hate the helplessness of such an existence. I wish I could go up to someone and make my mind forget for a little while, for one single day enter into a trance and drift off into dreamy currents of love and utopia without worries of work left undone and guilty feelings of a partly desired wasted life. Be able to comprehend the world and its natural and unnatural processes of hurt and a calm rage. How can love and hate exist within one single being at the same time? Why do people care for people who careless. I dont mother anyone now but my inexistent child, for though I want to, I don't(want to). How contradictory! & wierd! Just like the rest of my life. Some people can be so symetrical, so balanced, so perfect. So pathetic....
Feb 17, 2007
Motubhai Motubhai Tez Chalo!!

Thats wat eating too much and sleeping too much and not working out does to a person. He literally walked back to his crease without even looking where the ball was! He was already getting ready for his stance even before reaching his crease. I should say Sangakkara had an awesome presence of mind.
Really! i can only imagine dada doing something like that. Dada seemed more confident yesterday. Looks like Dada and Motubhai swapped places.
Feb 16, 2007
One and only " George Dubya "
Feb 15, 2007
Tagged - 20 Somethings
Three other names i go by: Jan, Janu, Jan-ANNIE ( yes its spelt the way its written)
Three screen-names: (screen names???)hmm...lemme think.. well for reals.. its hmm
Things i like about myself:
Eclectic repertoire of smiles & taste in music and food
Things i don't like about myself:
Procrastinating to death & pushing for perfectionism when its not needed
Things that scare me:
Meeting all my 100 gazillion 1st cuzins at ones.. Really I have soo many 1st cuzins that i have not seen every1 together.
Scared about: slowly losing my sense of humor as I get older. (Sense of humor? me? Beats me).
Hobby: I love music. I sing hindustani classical and carnatic music. Dance is my other passion, been active with a salsa school. I hate Programming with a passion! Thank heavens i dont do that for a living!
I catch myself stealing: Hmmmm.... You can catch me stealing a glance into a mirror if I walk past one! (I know many of you do it too!) So there, I'm not the only self-obssessed egocentric person around.
Something that gives me the creeps: I don't wanna be a grumpy old woman acting like the world is out to get me!
About me: Gullible at times or so Panchito thinks. Very inquisitive and straight forward. Sarcasm is a part of me(O'course for fun! NOT!!). I think i got that from my dad!
I get hyperactive when I am bed ridden-ly sick for more than 2 days. A perfectionist! cannot be good all the time!!! yikess
Bunjee jumped? I have bunjee jumped, a few times. (Did I also mention I'm scared of heights? Funny isn't it! sure i know wat ur thinking!)
Food: I'm vegetarian. What did you say? Oh..yeah! I eat eggs too... My point being, I love Indian-Chinese food and like sampling new cuisines. Mexican and Thai being my favs.
I like to read: I like to read a lot! If I'm studying or readin, not even the GOOD LORD can stop me. I am good at creating a bubble of force-shield around myself. ANd everything that hits me goes *bounce bounce* (sometimes, I wonder if I mistakenly create it around my brain, specially when what I read goes *bounce bounce*) Ok, I'm half-way there! *Phew*. Oh importantly I talk a lot. You must know by now!
Emotional: about music. Specially when I hear a good piece of music, be it instrumental or just about any kind.
I strongly detest: pretentious people, MCP's. and above all child molestation.
I regret: I regret not having picked a sport and played when I was younger. I believe I would've done well. Loved playin badminton, tennis and basketball. Beach volleyball is fun game and loved playing it in high school.
I love: strutting around and instructing people about what to do. I know Panchito wud agree! He keeps saying I would be a good manager ;);)
Intuition is: something I go by and hold on to with unimaginable faith when I'm helpless. A lot of strange things I've felt strongly about have actually taken place
Three essentials:
Music, Good food, Friends and Panchito(I need all 4)
I believe: that life is too short and weird as hell. I don't even know what life is about. When things go wrong, I think of me, the earth, the universe , and parallel universes and go "Whaaaaa? this is crazy shit." I don't even know if I'm supposed to be feeling what I'm feeling and why!
Funny thing you read today: "Every women should have 4 things : Mink in her closet, Jaguar in her garage, Tiger in bed and a jackass who pays for it all"
Thing I want to do badly now:
Sleep!
Dream Career:
Investment banking
I want to go on vacation to:
Australia
I want to visit:
Dude wats the big difference...
Kabul i guess...since u cant really vacation there now!!! WOuld like to visit there atleast 1s, I was told it was ones a very beautiful place. My aunt used to live there when the country was cherished, back in the 60's.
Three girl names i like:
1) Kriti
2) Parineeta
3) Shreya
(Heheh.. so Russel Peters gave a show in SJ a few months ago. He demonstrated how 'Hardik' and 'Sukhdeep' were among the worst names to give to your kids if you live in america, considering how they would end up being pronounced as. I think "Gopi" is another..)
A Song you sing a lot lately: Unwritten by Natasha Bedingfield
Are you happy this ended: U bet!!
Finally, I'd like to thank my family, my friends, andd...errr..wrong speech!
This is the best part. My chance to Tag.
Me tagging:
Deepa
Shiv
Feb 13, 2007
Why is MOTU still in the team?

What is up with the baldy motu still being in the Indian team..? I havent seen him perform since the 300 odd he hit against Pakistan in a test match. He is soo inconsistent and not at all dependable. Y is he selected for the worldcup? They sacked dada for not performing so y not sack motu?
Feb 10, 2007
Mozhi !
The song that i have been singing since i woke up...
Song could be found here: http://www.musicindiaonline.com/p/d/x/XsfgmdC4WS.As1NMvHdW/
"Kaatrin Mozhi"by Balram from the movie Mozhi
Kaatrin Mozhi Oliya Isaiya?
Poovin Mozhi Nirama Manama?
Kadalin Mozhi Alaya Nuraiya?
Kaadhal Mozhi Vizhiya Ithazha?
Iyarkayin Mozhigal Purinthividil
Manitharin Mozhigal Thevai illai
Idhayathin Mozhigal Purinthividil
Manitharku Mozhiye Thevai illai
(Kaatrin Mozhi)
Kaatru Veesum pothu
Thisaigal kidaiyaathu
Kaadhal Pesumpothu
Mozhigal Kidaiyaathu
Pesum Vaarthai Pola
Mounam Puriyaathu
Kangal Pesum Vaarthai
Kadavul Ariyaathu
Ulavi thiriyum Kaatrirku
Uravum Theeta Mudiyaathu
Kadhal Pesum mozhiyellam
Sapta kootil Adangaathu
Iyarkayin Mozhigal Purinthividil
Manitharin Mozhigal Thevai illai
Idhayathin Mozhigal Purinthividil
Manitharku Mozhiye Thevai illai
Kaatrin Mozhi....
Vaanam pesum Pechu Thuliyaai Veliyaagum
Vaanavilin Pechu Niramai Veliyaagum
Unmai Oomai Aanal Kanneer Mozhi Aagum
Penmai Oomai aanal Naanam Mozhi Aagum
Oosai Thoongum Jaamathil
Uchi Meengal Mozhi Aagam
Aasai Thoogum Idhayathil
Asaivu Kooda Mozhi Aagum
Iyarkayin Mozhigal Purinthividil
Manitharin Mozhigal Thevai illai
Idhayathin Mozhigal Purinthividil
Manitharku Mozhiye Thevai illai
(Kaatrin Mozhi!)
Kaatrin Mozhi Oliya Isaiya!
Poovin Mozhi Nirama Manama!
Kadalin Mozhi Alaya Nuraiya!
Kaadhal Mozhi Vizhiya Ithazha!
Iyarkayin Mozhigal Purinthividil
Manitharin Mozhigal Thevai illai
Idhayathin Mozhigal Purinthividil
Manitharku Mozhiye Thevai illai
The lyrics are very beautiful! I love Balram's voice. After his "Nee thaan en desiya geetham" from Parthale Paravasam, this is one of my favs.
-Janani
Weekends here!! NOT
Weekend.. doesnt make much difference to me... weekdays weekends.. all the same. Except that I dont have to goto work :p:p ; maybe catch friends who are on the 9 to eternity grind, I cant say i dont like weekends, I used to not like it before but now that i work tooo long would love a weekend to sleep in.
When i was a small kid, I heard my mom used to be really scared, not really scared but a lil scared to say it was saturday and there was no school, why???? because I would start bawling..and bawling. I know eh!! Wat are the odds..?? Yeah I was a good kid. Loved school. Went almost everyday and my teachers loved me, not coz I was an A student or anything tee hee :)
"It's raining men Hallejulah It's raining men Amen" it is right now! I took my baby Pasha (my cute shih-tzu & poodle puppy) for a walk early this morning and he loved it, Y? coz it was raining, & he also loves goin for 6 o'clock walks when the weather is just perfect for him, not soo much for me today!!! He had a ball playing in the grass and pooped in the grass; while i waited for him to finish his job so i can clean up. He was done, but he wouldnt come with me .. he sat there in the wet grass givin me a look that probably said.."u wait missy let me play for sometime!" . He kept playing and i kept standing in the rain, until Pasha felt sorry for me and looked at me with a face that probably said.. "Fine lets go!!, you have been nice to me for now!!"

The rain spoilt my schedule for a beautiful run that i had planned. Now i have to wait for the rain to stop or goto the gym. I am not a fan of going to the gym. Running in the treadmill is not like running in a trail. The Gym smells and is suffocating. I would rather run 5 miles in a trail than in a treadmill. Well thats just me!! unlike Panchito (my MAN!) he likes going to the gym, but i just drag him to run with me in a trail..
Well i guess thats enuff blabbing... So...On that thoughtful note i shall say something eatful... no thats not a word.. but meh!! u guys know wat i mean, I want to badly eat mexican food and neera u know how much i love mexican food, but sucks that i cant eat certain mexican food for atleast a year.. courtesy my braces... thanks.
For now I am gonna go make some nice breakfast and wake up Panchito(love doing that!! )
Feb 9, 2007
Fear.............................vs...........Evolution
Been thinkin about this for sometime...just tht i mite blog it to find out some opinions.....
Evolution has ensured adaptation in the human race to a large extent. When we feel cold, our blood vessels contract and they dilate when we feel hot. This changes the effective surface area for heat exchange. Out teeth chatter when we're cold. This generates heat. When we remain hungry for a long time, vital body functions are shut down. Prolonged hunger causes almost all internal functions to come to a halt, except for the most essential ones.
However when we are in fear or in an emergency, it appears that our natural response is not optimally suited to the handling of a situation. We panic. The thinking process is disrupted and uneven. Palms and forheads perspire. Instead, what we need is a tranquil mind for clear thinking. A solution that we may have been able to devise if we were calm, may well elude us in our panicky and ruffled condition. Why has evolution not been able to fine tune this aspect of human behaviour? Are fear and panic learned responses ? Would the natural human response be different for a person who has never seen the conventional human panicky behaviour ?
Feb 4, 2007
Telemarketers...Grrrrrrrrrr!

I am sure a lot of you would have all heard these calls, saying that you have been chosen to win a grand prize, won a lottery..etc No one is gonna give u anything for free in this world!!
I have registered my fone number with the "Do not call registry"; inspite of that i get to hear these telemarketers everyday... now they have started calling my cell phone as well...
Sometimes these telemarketing calls can be a gr8 time pass ...I have a few things i have told them and thought ill share them with you guys...
You can say these are a few revenge steps, tit for tat coz they do annoy quite a few of us a lot of times, no other way to get back...
Incident 1:
I was about to head out that day and i get a phone call. I picked up the fone.
Me: Hello!
TM(telemarketer): Hi! I am calling for Chase credit card! We have this offer for 0% balance transfer and went on for a couple of mins...
Me: I told him I am kinda busy, Can i have ur number so i can call you back
TM: No sorry! We cant give our numbers out to callers. WE dont want customers calling us.
Me: Now do u know how it feels!
TM: (for a change he said) Sorry! Have a nice day and hung up
The guy was nice enough to say sorry.

Incident 2:
Me: Hello!
TM: Calling from Carnival cruise and you have won this cruise, you are eligible to win a free cruise to the Carribeans
ME: Sorry am not able to hear u clearly
TM: (She repeats!!)
Me: Omg Can you please repeat, am not able to hear you.
TM mutters: dude this lady is deaf..and tries to repeat it
Me: Cruise wat? Who won?
TM: She is tryin to explain but she seems like she gave up
Me: My brother won?
TM: Sorry! I think we called the wrong person. THanks for your time..

Incident 3:
Me: Hello G'morning
TM: This is Maria from Amerisource calling regarding Mortgage rates etc...
(She probably said 200 words in 2 mins)
Me:Can you please speak very slowly because I have to write down every word your saying..
TM:
Wat are the odds of a telemarketer hanging up on u!!!!
Incident 4:
(My tone for this call was very serious! I could swear she thought she got a customer!)
TM: Hi, we are calling from Home owners equity! we can give u some good refinancing rates. How are you doing today?
Me: I am so very glad you asked, because no one these days seems to care, and I have all these problems.
TM: I think you got me wrong. We are callin for Home owners equity! for refinancing your house!
ME: Nice so we have a house?
TM: This call is regarding refinancing your present house. So thats the reason for this call!
Me: So You wont ask me how am doing first? What customer service are you offering without saying a proper hi!
TM: How are you Ms.Viswananathan( Vis-waah-nathan)?
Me: Again i started off sayin...am glad you asked me! I have soo many problems and i need someone to talk to and am glad we are able to talk now.
TM: I think i caught you in the wrong time. Thanks

Incident 5:
TM: HI Can i speak with Janani( JAN-ANNIE) Viswanathan ( Vis-waah-neh-tan)
Me: Omg Reena! How are you? Long time no hear..I missed you? How is our bf? I never expected ur call! Hows aunty and uncle?
TM: This call is from....
ME: (I cut her while she was talking) Stop joking, you think i can't recognize u?
U still being the same prankster u were!
TM: She hangs up on me..
-Janani
Feb 3, 2007
Bears vs Colts!
Feb 2, 2007
Kahan Ho Tum!

On my way to work, was listening to my fav radio station 101.3 with Don Blue, the songs were so repetitive and I dint feel like listening to the same old songs he has been playing lately, so i swtiched off the radio right after his blooper call. Some of his blooper calls are really funny!
TO my luck! I didnt find any cd's in my car and my ipod wasnt fully charged either.
I was soo desperate, i looked in my glove compartment for cd's. What are the Odd's Voila!! I found a CD; but me being a lazy bum I am didnt bother to name it.
Played the CD and the 1st song was "Kahan Ho Tum" by Neeraj Shridhar from Bombay Vikings. It was one of my fav song from before. Brings back soo many memories when i listen to this song! I used to listen to this song like 100 times a day and not get bored. Neeraj's voice takes you to another world and the lyrics are awesome!
Very romantic!! :)
Ppl who havent heard it, Song can be found here: http://www.raaga.com/channels/hindi/movie/H000970.html
kahan ho tum mujhe batao
zara kareeb se pukaaro
kahan kahan na dhoondhoon tumko
main awaara dar badar
nazar na aaye tum magar
chhup gaye ho tum kahan ho tum kidhar
ab to dil hai tapta sehra
dariya aankhon ki nami
yaadon ka laga hai pehra har kahin
jaana tumse tha jo roshan mera pyaar pe yaqeen
(woh) hai kahan kal tak to tha yahin
oh humnasheen
humnasheen
tum hi ne to kaha tha mujhse
subah nayi to aayegi
kisi ummeed ke sahaare
kar raha hoon reh-guzar
kaho kahan ho humsafar
chhup gaye ho tum kahan ho tum kidhar
ab to dil hai tapta sehra
dariya aankhon ki nami
yaadon ka laga hai pehra har kahin
jaana tumse tha jo roshan mera pyaar pe yaqeen
(woh) hai kahan kal tak to tha yahin
oh humnasheen
mujhe awaaz do
mere khwaabon ke sahaaron
phir se awaaz do
kahan ho tum pukaaro
mere khwaabon ke sahaaron
mujhe tum pukaaro
tumse tha jo roshan mere pyaar ka yaqeen
(woh) hai kahan kahan kal tak to tha yahin
ab to dil hai tapta sehra
dariya aankhon ki nami
yaadon ka laga hai pehra har kahin
jaana tumse tha jo roshan mera pyaar pe yaqeen
(woh) hai kahan kal tak to tha yahin
oh humnasheen
-jan
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