Why do the heartbeats echo??

"I lost my heart somewhere, all of a sudden,
but my eyes know this.
In the silent depths of your looks
is where my heart is restless,
lost.

But you are unaware......"

Sth that keeps me goin!!

Full of emotions, can be strong , rusty, painful but keeps me going whenever am down. 

I love writing them poetries :) 

Disturbed mind is it ?!?!

Tears slip by slowly stepping down the cheek,

time is no longer day, month or year,

dates drowned in the past,

moments which used to excite have lost their worth,

memories hurt evoking a million feelings,

anguish, fear, betrayal and then subside like a wave,

eyes gazing far trying to hide flaring thoughts,

voices murmur, clash, clutter inside,

words said unsaid,

questions, regrets

pain like a vast desert touches horizon

where shall I run?

peace is a mirage

a picture incomplete in a cracked mirrordeluded, confused;

outside silence prevails

terse, calm,

misunderstood somewhere deep inside,

silence is a flattering illusion.

Beeming Smile....The word Happiness by itself can make you smile if you are in a good mood, or can reflect all the bad memories if you are in a dull mood, and can set your minds thinking psychologically if you are bit crazy:)
Thinking of the last one, what is your ultimate goal in life? Some say, thats the question which drives our lives, some say its attaining Moksha or Nirvana, some say it is to perform our duties and responsibilities, and some even say its to reach near God! These are all spiritual goals in one way or another. What about materialistic goals? Earning money or becoming famous or is it living happily? I know I know, its all to a few and something arguable.

I remember studying a story about these three brothers. I don’t remember it fully, but it was something about them settling the dispute over the inheritance of wealth or something, the King announced that who ever is successful after 3 years, he would be chosen as the favourable chosen person. The chosen one was a poor farmer, but he was happy. The story ends with the moral that contentment is the ultimate wealth.
Every person in this world faces troubles. There happens mood swings when all thoughts pour in your mind. There self-development and inspirational websites help to some extent to give instant boost, but the effects fade away easily and it true. In many of the websites, they preach to develop friends, or to get busy in something or other, or to work towards your goals and etc. But for all, you need a teeny li’l inspiration, a lovely pat, a small cheer up or a wonderful smile…If you are happy and smiling, you can give a try making others smile too and talking them out. But what if you are not? Thats where we need to improve.
Some people call up their friends to talk. They are lucky to have such close ones to talk them out. But there are situations when they are not reachable or times when we cannot reveal to others. Some just brood over for some time and then recover themselves. Some just hide it in the corner of their heart leaving them to pile up and live as if nothing happened. Then when limit reaches, everything blurts out leaving you shattered. Is this worth? Can’t we share out? No. Because people are not willing to hear out the troubles of others, but just expects the world to solve all the problems.
Why don’t we share both the happiness and sorrows. Have people become so narrow minded or selfish? Some blame it on individual behaviour and some blame on the rules of the society. But isn’t it influenced by the environment we live in? Why don’t people change themselves and love others, instead of learning to hurt them. Why don’t they realize that the source of happiness and peace is themselves? As usual, there would be no answer…!!

Life happens when you are busy with other things....

I have heard this line a thousand times over… never gave it much thought..  but suddenly with a lot of time in my hands all I had to do was think about anything under the sun..The headline is so true though, I found out during one of these thinking sessions… we are all so engaged with the idea of survival that we forget that theres more to life than just doing what we are supposed to do.. So my point is , though we tend to forget it, that is what life is, the freedom of doing what you want to do seems to be used seldom. I saw this ad recently on this indian channel, beautifully puts it “reclaim your life” In a few months, or say weeks ( wishful thinking til that happens, few may be a lil more than a few) will be back in the corporate world, but i will also have succumbed to the norms set in some invisible way that defines the right from the wrong. I really wonder though, when will I ever find a lil time for myself like I have today.. now I feel bored and keep thinking of when will I head back to work. I need something to do.. then it hits me, this might be the last few days/weeks of my life that I have this lavishly lazy time all to myself.. the thought brightens me up.. I am alive, free and nothing is stopping me from doing what I wanna do.. which brings up the question what do I wanna do??? well, i’ll save that for the next blog.

Lat ulajhi sulja jaa balam!!!!!!

Rahman weaves his magical thread once more, he attempts to blend a trance groove with Indian classical vocals in Manmohini Morey. No Kidding? Exceptionally attractive, thanks especially to the underrated vocals of Vijay Prakash. Sounds so different from his previous numbers. Rahman's classical sense sharpens; is mindblowing as he composes this addictive melody while capturing the intricacies, nuances and specialties of the Indian classical style. Only he can do it!!!!. It has got a quasi-trance beat to it which takes this song to new levels of gratification. It is set in raag Bheempalas, whose carnatic equivalent is Raagam Abheri . There could have been more improvisation and that it could've have been longer, but the purely techno orchestration gives the song its other-worldiness. Rahman rocks as usual!!!

Song of the day - Kahin To Hogi

My fav verse in this song:

Saansein Kho gayi hain kiski aahon mein?
Main Kho gayee hoon jaane kis kis aahon mein?
Manzilon se raahein dhoondti chali
Kho gayi hai manzil kahin raahon mein

and Ofcourse
Jaane na kahaan woh duniya hai
Jaane na woh hai bhi ya nahin
Jahaan meri zindagi mujhse
Itni kha fa nahin

Awwww... sooo cute.. !!!!! I miss u rats:( Oh wait u were the meow !!!

I simply cant blog Saala!!! :)

Ok After gettin myself obsessed with the song kabhi Kabhi from Jaane tu Ya Jaane Na, I got to know that the movie was playing at the theater down the street from me. I couldn't resist but get myself to the theater.

Gathered a few folks and went to watch the movie. It was such a cute movie. I just got 3 words to say "I loved it”!! I had my share of laughs, tears and masti.
I could so relate to a lot of things in the movie and especially the song:). It made me miss some1 soo much :(:(, its indescribable. I am obsessed with that song Kabhi Kabhi Aditi. It has been looping everywhere, be it car, home, work or phone :P

Imran and Genelia - Ultra cute
Rahmans music - soothing to ears
"Kabhi Kabhi" - Chirpy
"Kahin To" - romantic &
"Pappu cant dance" - silly & hilarious :)

I think i will be talking about this movie to every1 I see for a few days/weeks.. BEWARE
:)

Kabhi Kabhi "Dosti" Aditi :)

Some things are very sentimental and close to heart. For some reason this song falls in that category, I feel like this song was written for me...and definitely cheers me up.
Rahman has done a great job with this song and the lyrics - really cute.

♥♪♥♪♥♪♥♪♥♪♥♪♥♪♥♪♥♪♥♪♥♪♥♪♥♪♥♪♥♪♥♪♥♪♥♪♥♪♥♪♥♪♥♪♥♪♥♪♥♪♥♪♥♪♥♪♥♪♥♪♥♪♥♪♥♪
Film: Jaane Tu YA Jaane Na
Music: AR Rahman
Singer: Rashid Ali
Lyrics: Abbas Tyrewala

♥♪♥♪♥♪♥♪♥♪♥♪♥♪♥♪♥♪♥♪♥♪♥♪♥♪♥♪♥♪♥♪♥♪♥♪♥♪♥♪♥♪♥♪♥♪♥♪♥♪♥♪♥♪♥♪♥♪♥♪♥♪♥♪♥♪

Kabhi kabhi Aditi zindagi mein yunhi koi apna lagta hai
Kabhi kabhi woh bichhad jaaye to ek sapna lagta hai
Aise mein koi kaise apne aansuon ko behne se roke?
Aur kaise koi soch le everything’s gonna be okay?

Kabhi kabhi to lage zindagi mein rahi na khushi aur na mazaa
Kabhi kabhi to lage har din mushkil aur har pal ek sazaa
Aise mein koi kaise muskuraaye kaise hans de khush hoke?
Aur kaise koi soch le everything’s gonna be okay?

Soch zara jaan-e-jaan tujhko humein kitna chahte hain
Rote hain hum bhi agar teri aankhon mein aansoo aate hain
Gaana to aata nahin hai magar phir bhi hum gaate hain
Hey, Aditi.. Maan kabhi kabhi saare jahaan mein andhera hota hai
Lekin raat ke baad hi to savera hota hai

Kabhi kabhi Aditi zindagi mein yunhi koi apna lagta hai
Kabhi kabhi woh bichhad jaaye to ek sapna lagta hai

Hey, Aditi.. hans de, hans de, hans de, hans de, hans de.. Hans de tu zara
Nahin to bas thoda, thoda, thoda, thoda, thoda.. Thoda muskura

Tu khush hai to lage ke jahan mein chhayee hai khushi
Sooraj nikle baadalon se aur baante zindagi
Sun to zara madhosh hawa tujhse kehne lagi
Ke Aditi woh jo bichhadte hain ek na ek din phir mil jaate hain
Aditi jaane tu ya jaane naa phool phir khil jaate hain

Kabhi kabhi Aditi zindagi mein yunhi koi apna lagta hai
Kabhi kabhi woh bichhad jaaye to ek sapna lagta hai

Hey, Aditi.. hans de, hans de, hans de, hans de, hans de.. Hans de tu zara..
Nahin to bas thoda, thoda, thoda, thoda, thoda.. Thoda muskura.

Translation on its way :)

Realization - Smile and more!

I had to write something, since i have been soo badly wanting to write today..

I was listening to a song from 'Sound of music'.. 'Raindrops on roses .. These are a few of my favorite things'.
I was just thinking about this...there are so many small, simple things that can make anyone happy. Only that each person could realize that this is where the
happiness lies. Only when the person knows that there can be things which you see and do everyday can mean a lot to you.
There are so many such things which amuse me, excite me so much that i can easily forget anything that 'would' have been troubling me.

I was reading a friend's blog and had a picture of an old lady reading a book by the shore Fantabulous!!! that would be one of the
best places to read a book.... this thought made me think of all the many things that i like.. and it ended up being a BLOG
.. so many things around might interest you. From the start of the day.. through the day, till the end….every aspect of the day/of your life has a beauty of its own………

The rays of the sun through the windows of your room while you are just trying to get the last minutes of your sleep,

A nice hot cup of tea in the morning, rejoicing it by sipping it reading the newspaper.

Smell of rain, the freshness around, the sight the plants all washed green

Huggable puppies



A walk in the park nearby, paani puris in the evening especially when it has rained,

Singing the song which has just a big hit on the charts, as you try your hand at the kitchen.

Surfing the channels on the TV and discover that your favorite movie has been aired.

Reading a book by the fireplace, moon watching, star gazing and writing poetries.

The list can go on and on…….
.... I feel it all lies in the realization that the most common things can make you smile.
I hope that each person keeps the kid at heart alive to experience and rejoice the simple things in life!

Back with some "Realization" :)

I just realised I haven't blogged for a while and its been long since I posted something in my blog. Reason? Even I don’t know. Not that I didn’t have anything to say, but just that I didn’t know how to say it. But today I do

I realised how much i miss doing something i love. WRITING. I have been focusing on so many things and forgetting to do what i love the most. I don't know if I have a valid excuse for myself, when I say I was busy, but hey, I was busy..I was..with all the work and dance, yes, I was busy feeling happy at the same time, on top of the world about a lot of things!

Ok now, Ideas literally pounding inside my skull, I feel I would burst any moment now..Ok Janu stop, give a break to ur excitement...Now, back to work..Blogging and reading others blogs reserved for the night! :)

Nothing Endures but Change

I saw a blog by someone else, I can't remember where now, it was a strong objection to the idea of Change being the only thing permanent in life. It surprised me at that point actually that anyone could feel that way, and even more surprisingly protest against change.

Change is after all the cornerstone of life, of existance, of being. From the time something changed in the primodeal state of the pre-universe leading to the Big Bang, there have been changes, many of them violent and destructive which have finally brought us here.

I don't speak of change simply interms of natural ones either, but there are the ones that we as society bring about that are ineveitable. They may be gradual, indeed I believe that it is the ones that are gradual that last. Wars do little to change the human condition. Look at Iraq now for instance, Instead of living under a native dictator, they have practically been colonised by a greater power. But the situation of the common people remains the same. That change will only come with time, as the people themselves fight for their rights and for true democracy.

Change is inevitable, as life isn't fair to everyone all at once; those who are the underdogs today, will fight to be on top tomorrow. There is no point in bewailing these changes.The only difference that you can make is by changing your attitude to adapt to the change. Change after all, is better than stagnation; a stagnant society will quickly find itself overwhelmed.

Not all change may be good, though you may assume that someone is getting some good out of it somewhere. But that is no reason to to fear chage. Indeed, I fear the opposite, unchangingness- for the simple reason, that that which is unchanging, must be so for all eternity, and eternity is not something I can even begin to fathom.

It has been said, that "the more things change the more they stay the same". That kind of reminds me of a fractal: those geometrical shapes which look the same in their most basic structure as they do magnified.

This may be true, but in that case the perception of change is important. For a poor man who becomes rich, there may be a rich man who became poor, thus balancing things out overall...or as we improve our standards of living, the poverty line may simply be raised, leaving the same number of people beneath it and so on....but the fact is change has taken place, and there is no stoppin it!

Lil things friends do!!!

The last 3 days has been a blur, with me falling and falling sick. I guess falling was not enough, i had the flu bugg chase me home with vengeance and was a victim of that big guy.


Evening happenned, a few of my friends decided to show up at my door to cheer me up. How sweet was that?? 2 of em showed up with a poker set and 4 joined after. I couldnt talk or move around much. I lost my voice completely; but i guess having friends around made my day. I badly needed people around and right when i thought so, they all showed up :)

Just how eventful it was!!!!! eventhough i felt ripped apart from my sickness.
Love you guys :)

Back to my ramblings :)

I cant believe i haven't blogged in 10 months. I am back and i hope to keep blogging more often.

Something cute for my friends daughter. The 1st thing that came to mind as soon as i saw a pic of the new born Stavyah!

I met you today
Not a word, you spoke!
A simple little look
My whole self was yours!

Cya'll with more of my rants:)

Song of the day!!

By song of the day i mean i have been singing it all day...Its the song from the most awaited movie Sivaji-The Boss. Thalaivar movie...thats rite.. I cant wait to watch the movie. I think Chinmayi has rendered this beautifully and Udit Narayan again tried to sing without his accent but i guess its tough. I still like this song....
















Sahana:
Chinmayi & Udit Narayan

Sahana Saral Thoovutho
Sahara pookal Poothatho oooo

Sahana saral thoovutho
Sahara pookal poothatho

Sahara pookal poothatho oooo
Sahana saral thoovutho ooo

En vinveli thalaikimal thiranthatho ada da
Antha vennila veetukul Nuzhainthatho
Athu ennudun thenir kondatho

Kanavo Nijamo,kadhal Manthiramo
Ooru aayiram aandukal semitha kaathal Ithu
Noor aayiram aandukal thaaandiyum vaazhum Ithu

Sahara pookal poothatho
Sahana saral thoovutho

(AR Rehman bit)
Dheem thana Dheem thana Dina na Dina na na na
Dheem thana Dheem thana Dina na dina na na na
Dheem thana Dheem thana Dina na dina na na na
Dheem thana Dheem thana Dina na dina na na na

Thalai muthal kaal varai thavikindra dhoorathai ithazhgalil kadanthu
vidu
Un meesayin mudi endra melliya saaviyil kulangalai thiranthu vidu

Boomikum vaanukum virikindra thoorathai pookalil Nirapatuma
Pookalin saalaiyil poov unnai yenthiya vaanukul nadakatuma

Oor aayiram aandukal semitha kaathal Ithu
Noor aayiram aandukal thaaandiyum vaazhum Ithu

Oor aayiram aandukal semitha kaathal Ithu
Noor aayiram aandukal thaaandiyum vaazhum Ithu Ithu Ithuuuuuuuuu

Sahana saral thoovutho
Sahra pookal poothatho

En vinveli thalaikimal thiranthatho ada da
Antha vennila veetukul Nuzhainthatho
Athu ennudan thenir kondatho

Kanavo Nijamo,kadhal Manthiramo

Oor aayiram aandukal semitha kaathal Ithu
Noor aayiram aandukal thaaandiyum vaazhum Ithu

Sahara saral thoovutho
ooooo oooo ooo ooooooooooooo

Sahara pookal poothatho
o ooo o ooo oooooooooo

Life is too busy and not fair................

I am back here .. Finally

The past one week has been sooper frustrating.. for starters, My net connection conks. had a deadline to meet. My writer conked. So couldnt send the documents I worked on after copying.. The cds I used must have emerged from a garbage dump and landed right into some manufacturing unit. I try and copy files, it goes to another comp and refuses to open my files. So there I went translating all the documents all over again..

Too much driving also. From one end to the other. Haven't been able to do soo much of work.

In between some good things happened too.. I finally got to catch two movies at the Theatre. One bad thing overwrote all good things that happenned to me. I am still coping from it. I am still shattered but i guess i will be strong in dealing with it.
Its really hard to see som1 u know suffering. I sometimes feel how strange and unfair life is... but hey life is never fair...

Let me stop my rant fro now so i can talk abt the men in blue..wat CAN i say about Indian cricket... bunch of losers...i knew this was goin to happen coz they had too much hype...i am dissapointed but they reallly dont deserve to be in the super 8's.
GO PROTEAS...all the way....

I will try to be more frequent with my blogs...

I wonder!!

Why do we so often live for the future and forget that today is our only assurance? I have lately been wondering why so many people continually strive to achieve something in the future and forget that they are living in the present. We live for tomorrow and yet tomorrow never comes. Sometimes I wonder if its really worth worrying about my past...which i dont. I learn the mistakes from past and try not to do that again.Other than that, Y do ppl worry so much about the past when they have today. Realization is the 1st step to enjoying and living a better life. Will I always disregard and turn down the thrills of the present for those of the future or will I ever actually reach the future? If I ever will, will it be too late to fully enjoy then? I wonder....

Nostalgiaaaaaa!

I was drivin to work this morning and i saw all these high school kids rollerblading and biking to school. Reminded me of my high school days where i would rollerblade to glory with my cd walkman(yea those were the days when we had those big walk mans)ignoring every1 in the streets. Nostalgia kicked in... It is usually the perfect image of something long lost. You often dream of how you should never have lost it, of how you could return to that instant, time, person or event and how it would make everything all right again, but on real terms, thank God if you never do. In time, the negativity of the experience levels off and creates an unreal image in your mind, which however is rather satisying to the justification of what once has been and now is lost. Yet, a single glance to the reality of 'what is missing' will most probably shatter all the perfection that your nostalgia has built up in your mind. The feeling is only perfect if left unhindered, as a thing of the past that has shaped you up into what you are and is now no more. The moment the nostalgic -reality- creeps back, it is no longer a good feeling of something good you had. Its magic wears out. It becomes a -possesion-, something you have no need to dream of and can't imagine as perfect, for in reality nothing is.

Fate & Destiny....

I had an argument with a friend about this last week.. I personally dont believe in them.

This is wat i believe destiny is: its not a matter of chance... its a matter of choice; You control what you do today; its not a thing to be waited for and its a thing to be achieved.

Its like what ever happened is for your own good... it might not feel that way going through it...but later on u will realise it is.

Fate is how things you cant control but assemble themselves. Still there are somethings where you do have some control over. Making an incorrect decision in your life when u were given an option and you end up choosing the wrong option. You cant blame that on fate. You were given an option and you decided to go that way.

I got this quote from a friend. "Life is lived forwards, but understood backwards" by philospher Soren Kierkegaard, 1813-1855. It is soo true!!!


But there are times where you have no control over things..Heading to work and you get into an accident. Is that fate?

Some say fate or destiny is a predetermined course of events...sometimes.. if its predetermined can we change it in teh course of our lives?
I dont believe in life being predetermined et al! Read this on my way tow rok today. "There is no chance, no fate, no destiny that can circumvent, or hinder, or control a firm resolve of a determined soul."

TGIF...

One more day and it's end of the week! Tomorrow's packed with meetings... lately I haven't been able to keep track of all of 'em! Reminders suddenly pop up now and then, and I go, "What? Meeting? Now?? Which one is it now??" And looks like next week is gonna be the same, if not worse! Really looking forward to this weekend though...but then i got my marathon training and all the show practices...Sometimes I really wish I were working in India or somethin, they have so many public holidays, every God has a birthday and that is a public holiday! And there are so many "Gods"! Whoa! :O